Trigger shy

This school year has been hell. Absolute hell.

25 credit hours, 8 classes, asinine amounts of material. Life has been less fun than a weekend at Guantanamo. All of these things have culminated into this week from hell.

On Thursday I had 4 exams and had to write a 15 page paper. Today I had a quiz and another exam. I've gotten less than 4 hours of sleep over the last 2 days and had no choice but to over-night it at UB for the first time in my four year career.

My eyes are bloodshot. My thoughts are frantic and broken. I'm grungy and definitely need a power shower. And my being overwhelmed with my situation surely had a negative effect on how I performed on my exams. There is just no way you can adequately study for 5 exams over 2 days.

I pray that this week from hell hasn't damned my entire semester. I've tried so hard. If one exam was to kill my grade, I'd have wasted 4 months of hard work and heartache. So much build up for such a giant letdown.

This can't happen. Can it?

I have this academic gun to my temple and it's as if John B. Simpson is yelling at me to pull the trigger but I'm understandably reluctant to do so.

I guess all I can do is pray or the best. You can pray for me too. If I fly on the wings of the Lord, theres no way he'll let me down.

Let us fly. Into the sunset. And winter break.